The time in between...

Sitting here at the Porter airport lounge in Toronto...its dull and generic everywhere I look so I figured Id get my blog on while I sit here waiting..keep my mind off of the little biting fears in my gut. Like how Im actually kinda scared of planes to be honest...each person that boarded on the last flight..I sat there thinking to myself..Is this the people I'm gonna die with? my brain flashing back to that scene in Fight Club where Eddy Norton visualizes the plane crashing..and he doesn't even care if it does..diff between him and I, is that I do care.
Thinking of my son back home..knowing hes all good, but wondering if he even misses me yet. The insecure mother..haha..wow Ang...get a grip. Maybe its just because I havnt had enough coffee yet, so Im cranky. Maybe I'm just sulking. Probably both.
Anyhow, this is what I wanted to talk about..I can feel in my heart that this weekend has something special in store for us. Like Gods throwing us a surprise party, and I happened to get a sneak peak at the invite.  Funny you might think, because we are going to Thunder Bay for a funeral...u picture rain, black dress cloaks and tears. Bouquets of flowers and crinkled faces. Vegetable platters and sweaty cheese. Small single serving sandwiches(yay another fight club quote :))
See, this is so important for my husband..he came all the way here from Alaska just to marry my ass...so suffice to say he hasnt had the time with his family he so well deserves. I'm so excited to see him BE HIMSELF fully with his family. With his wife at his side, showing off pictures of our son. I'm excited to finally meet all these people, not without the admission, of how nervous I actually am....shhh. So here's to my husband, for the opportunity to mend broken relationships..to hug his Mom and Dad and just Be with his family. The past three years we've been together its always been MY family events, MY traditions. So here's to yours my love..I love you with all my heart.
And just a p.s...airport authority kinda remind me of my time in jail..not as constricted, but just as much attitude and displaced power...get over yourself and smile for once..just sayin'...now to fetch more free peppermint tea<3